I see you. I feel you. I too have been gaslit and scapegoated. It hurts like hell. You escape with your dignity, but not ever recouping the love you needed to feel whole during those tender years. May we all begin, continue, and tend to our healing throughout our lives. BTW, I see a connection between going through such trauma and being able to face the cultural trauma of the U.S., as in your "white Jesus" article. Please don't stop.